Thursday, February 4, 2010

Month Two – Day 1 – 4

I wish I was a coffee drinker. If I were I could keep up with this non-stop work load and not feel drained all the time. Getting up at 7am and going to bed at 2am is not working for me. In an odd way though, I like to always be busy, it doesn’t give me any time to hate myself. It does, however, make eating choices a problem.

Having time for breakfast in the morning is a struggle. I usually end up waiting until lunch time to eat, and then eating a late snack. Eating so close to bedtime isn’t a good thing. It usually means I choose poor food choices. My goal for the next few days is to make time to eat a healthy breakfast that will get me through the day.

Also, I’ve been sick for about five months. I have a Dr.’s appointment today and I hope I’ll get some answers. My theory is that I have a sinus infection. Really, I just want to get rid of this silly cough, be able to breathe clearly and regain full capacity of my taste buds. I’ll let you know what the outcome is.


Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Month One - Day 27 to 31

I began this month weighing in at 146.4 lbs, feeling like a failure and I'm ending the month at 148 lbs, feeling like I won the world. I definitely didn't accomplish any of the phsyical goals I set for myself but I made significant process in my mental journey. I feel better about the future and I've identified why some things seemed like insurmountable obstacles.

I am extremely proud of the grand strides I've made in the way of healthy eating. Instead of going out to eat at a fast food restaurant every day I am making lunches at home to eat at school. I am trying to find new ways to satisfy the need that food is currently filling to stop impulsively eating when things begin overwhelming me. I am also proud of the fact that, although I have mountains of school work, I do not feel like I can't stay on top of it.

At this point in the journey I need to re-evaluate my goals. I still want to lose 5 lbs per month until April but I want the focus to be a reduction in fat around my mid-section instead of simply weighing less. This means I'll have to step up my exercise regime. I can do it and I'm looking forward to continuing on this journey.